I just write

I just write
I feel that no understands
I just post
because what I want to say doesn't come out
or is it I don't know how to say it.
feeling trapped
like an animal in the zoo
or side freak in a circus
caged like a roaring lion
drowning in darkness
filled with rage
rage that's like the fiery sun
but then i cannot say
because it will come out wrong
so I just write
no i just post.
hoping the feeling of wanting out of a body
that was never yours at all
or was always someone else's to control
since you could remember
but then you just write
because words won't come right
because you feel trapped.
then you realize your voice is stiflen
because what you say is not want you really want say
trying to convey the message that you feel lost
angry and cannot see a future
beneath the firey sun
or the darken clouds
you cannmake any one understand what you say
because words come out wrong so
you just write that
I am tired of fighting
I have no fight left.
All I want is a fresh start
but I have to fight
I am tired, weary of fighting, struggling
maybe drowning in darkness is good