around me

around me
I do not see
Who are the angels
Surely not me
once again
I'm broken
once again
I do not believe in him
Again I drown
in the darkness of the ocean
where are the angels
they let me
die in the dark night
depths of the sea
Where is God
why he abandoned me?
Why  has he not protected me
Where is this heaven?
where is heaven?
I suppose that heaven is a myth
Where are my guardian angels
I'm broken
I damaged
I am a person
where is the light?
dying
broken
damged
shame
unloved
with no angels around me
There is no light in my life
darkness
death
brokeness
shame
no love
obscurity